Anger Storms to Intuition

When anger shuts and locks my jaw down, my brow furrows and I feel a dark thunder cloud forming over my head, what do I choose?

Will I choose to let it continue to build and blacken the whole sky until the Heavens release the Kraken of a storm overhead?

Or…

Will I choose to give it the attention it needs?  Do I invest some of my valuable time towards calming this potential destructive angry storm, to soothe it into a gentle cleansing Cornish mist?

Oh, the choices we have in life!  Are they really choices or do they have the power to control us, and have free reign to stomp all over and destroy us?

Well that depends.

Making the right choice

Do I take the short term easy¹ route and IGNORE IT?  

If so, do I let it build and cloud my judgement, pulling a veil of misery down over my life, to distort my reactions up to epic proportions? 

Will I give it the power to take away any joy and comfort, to tear apart everything in its wake?   

Do I stand by as it potentially destroys those precious relationships with myself and others? 

Can I bear ending up standing torn apart and ALONE?

My head pounds with the booming pressure of my heavy pulse.  I hear it vibrating through my ears with an irritating barrage of static sounds grating my nerves.

What can I do?…

I know I need to do something soon before my head explodes.

I know I need help to fully get these festering feelings out of me in my next Kinesiology session.  However, I also know I need to calm my Vagus Nerve right now to get through my day unscathed. 

I know I have to choose the harder option. 

I know I need to face the person who is the meanest in my life… I turn towards… myself.

I take responsibility of my feelings, and I name my emotion… Anger. 

I choose to own up to the potential shame it can hold over me, and have a go at releasing it. 

I choose to take note of and listen to my disturbing physical tension, resulting from unheard emotions. 

I dive in, I take heed of Yoda from Star War’s advice, “Do or Do not, There is no Try”! 

I choose to find comfort.

Which technique helps?

I take the opportunity of my lunch break.   I find myself somewhere quiet I can sit by myself. 

I call upon what I have at hand, my friend, my creation, one of my tools.  I feel drawn towards, and choose, Becoming Your Hero relaxation adventure.

I turn my phone to silent and I let my inner voice guide me to what I need right now… to deal with my anger!

I don my ear phones, press play, and let my actual voice take me on a healing adventure.  (I am also pleased with myself as I confront the potentially judgemental thoughts around hearing my own voice. “Oh do be quiet ye sceptic questioning head of mine!!)

I must admit, I was rather surprised…

What is my intuition?

Slight segue… I find that our head can take over somewhat if we let it. It can question and dampen our intuition.  Well, let’s be truthful here, it has the tendency to question a lot!  Which is why I personally have persevered with my practise.  After all, how are we able to learn a new skill and get good at it unless we practise it?

Throughout my practise (and Practice) I have learnt the importance over time to do something which is supposedly simple.  Trust our intuition.

Intuition can be very subtle, and often missed.  It can also feel like it’s grabbing us by the scruff of our neck and shoving us forward, or maybe dunking our face into an ice-cold bucket of water! 

For me, it has been an uncomfortable trickle of goosebumps at my lower back warning me to turn around and walk back the way I’ve came, which I listened to thankfully, finding out later that I was heading smack bang into a dodgy part of an unfamiliar country. 

Another time was when a slight feeling on my upper back, like a vague angelic presence was urging me back outside to tell my boyfriend at the time to not drive home (*TRIGGER WARNING*).  My head ignored this feeling because of believing I was being silly, and other obvious reasons whilst living at home with my parents!  He then drove off, and later dozed off to have a head on collision with a tree (which he survived with just a little scar on his nose, thankfully).

How I arrived at Kinesiology was a special time, like someone was shoving me from behind in the middle of my back, and up towards a lady I thought I knew at a stall at the Mind Body Spirit Festival.  She looked at me because she thought she knew me too, which we didn’t. This was my introduction to the College of Complementary Medicine, exactly where I needed to be for the next chapter in my life.

Thank you for reading thus far.  If you need to, may I suggest a little shake like you may have seen dogs do?  This is a way they use to shake off excess adrenaline and calm their nervous system.  Go on, give it a go, let your body shake off any disruptive thoughts right now, let your body gently shake all over, feel the vibration.  Feel better?  I hope so. 

If you or anyone you feel needs help, I would be honoured to help release anything that maybe stuck as tension in our precious bodies.  My life’s goal is to help as many people as I can seek and destroy old destructive patterns, get rid of any waste, and then clean up ourselves and our precious family members to restore harmony.

And because Star Wars Day is coming up on Saturday… May the 4th (Be With You)!, keep reading until the end for Star Wars’s month offering…

Back to my surprise…

I was surprised to find myself turning into…

Wait for it…

…Chewbacca!

Yes, Chewbacca, another star off Star Wars!  The incredibly hairy being with an “aarrrrggghhhh” Shyriiwook language that I for one can’t understand!

OK…

So, I went with my inner wisdom and shushed my head, well done me.  I figured it wanted to tell me something and as above, I’ve learnt to listen, which is a skill I promise we all can improve.

Whilst being guided within the meditation, I was able to fully relax into my body, then embody the qualities I needed right now to understand and calm my anger storm.  All this from a “walking carpet”, as Princess Leia so eloquently called him!

Whatever we need, I’m sure you’ll agree, isn’t always clearly presented to us on a silver platter by our butler.  Wouldn’t that be ever so nice though, “Thank you Jeeves…”.

It can sometimes be tricky, a lot of trial and error, a few swear words and feeling a bit raw.  However, when we open to our vulnerability and our needs, the door to find true long lasting comfort as ourselves can open. 

When we allow ourselves to trust, we are more able to be fully present, and see the signs we need.  These signs can be sensed in our environment, within our body, our thoughts, feelings and emotions, etc.  This gives us the space to truly flourish.

What I gained from Chewbacca…

Well, some of the gifts from being this strange furry character were: self security; steadfastness; the ability to roar out my emotions; to expand into my entire height and chest, comfortably and fully, and stand up straight.  Interestingly, what I found I strangely needed most, was the silky softness of my fur hair smoothed over my head. 

Thankfully my anger was beautifully calmed by this, and no limbs were lost by this Wookie in my vision!  (No wonder some find me delightfully entertaining with an amasing imagination [thank you Einstein, you knew the importance of a healthy imagination] I’ll avoid the word “weird”.

Soothing a grief striken wounded heart

So, by imagining stroking my own Chewie’s soft and silky head, I was able to feel this softness for myself.  This helped soothe my healing heart during my recent grief over losing our most loving and beautiful 13 year old fur baby.  After being gifted another cherished 15 joy filled months with him as a tripawd, he gained his angel wings with full honours of giving and receiving pure love and fun during this time.

By connecting with my inner strength and softness, helped me to identify and release my unwanted anger. 

The anger I was battling resulted from looking after someone else’s fur baby, when I was needing to grieve my own beautiful fur baby.

It helped me identify how my heart had developed a crusted over protective layer in order to prevent feeling more hurt from the sadness underneath.  This protection made it dangerously fragile with bits breaking off whilst trying to hold it together.  So the protective layer was keeping me stuck in both a raging storm of anger as well as the underlying floods of trapped sadness.  

With what I had learnt, I was able to nourish my needy heart.  I was able to pay it attention, feel into it, acknowledge my need, and not shame it. 

This helped to dissolve the crusty layer which thought it was doing me a favour. 

The trapped hurt was then released, and along went the brewing festering anger.  My heart was back to being soft and squishy being comfortable in its vulnerability. 

I was able to see through my softer heart and eyes.  This enabled me to see our fur lodger’s much different personality, and own needs with less expectations from me to fill the empty space. 

I was able to give my own Chewbacca head the comfort of stroking my silky fur, to stay centred and give myself what I needed to heal.

This is a good example of when we stay out of our heads and go with our own illogical intuition, we can find what we need. All done in a fun and unexpected way, enabling us to continue our healing journey and knowing… This is the way! (thank you Mandalorian wisdom, hee hee).

Does the same relaxation work twice?

Absolutely it does!  Even when venturing into the same relaxation adventure day in day out, there is always something different for us to see and understand about ourselves and our needs.  We grow each time we go on an adventure.  We are never the same person that goes back in again.  The more times we seek answers within, the more clarity we get to really see ourselves and our needs.  There is always something to learn about ourselves.

I love seeing everyone’s journey of awareness unfold.  Watching us all shine when we open to the opportunities of getting to know ourselves, what triggers us, and what makes us shine. 

Optimising the possibility to transforming a storm of anger into a beautiful rainbow.

Oh yes, I have many, many more wonderous tools and techniques to help light the way towards feeling comfort within and without.  I will be showcasing them this year to demonstrate how Kinesiology and Mind Body Medicine are such powerful ways to bring sunshine into our lives and feel lighter for ourselves and our whole families and loved ones.

Rest in Peace, Dedication to My Beautiful Star of My Life and Newletters,

I would love to finish off this month’s newsletter with a dedication to a recent departed love of my life, our fur baby boy.

Rest in Peace My Beautiful Fur Baby Angel, you deserve it, you star.  Thank you for all the fun, love and cuddles, and also the inspiration and images for many of my newsletters! Forever in our heart and always with us now.

I am so grateful to all the kind warm words and love sent our way throughout his transition over the rainbow bridge during our grieving process.

My dog filled my heart…
And lit up my life
To now lose my boy…
It cuts like a knife
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To not see his face…
It tears me apart
Missing his tail wags…
A dart to the heart
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I love you my boy…
You pure hearted soul
I now need to fill…
This ginormous hole
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I focus within…
And what do I see
Pure love inside me…
Abundant and free
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I thank you my boy…
For all you taught me
Now I can take you…
Everywhere with me
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True love fills my heart…
And lights up my life
Through thick and through thin…
I feel your wildlife.

Dedicated Poem by Mandy Wheen, to her beloved fur baby boy, 
Rest in Peace you beautiful Soul x

If you or anyone you know are going through any tough times, I hope you can find comfort from or share comfort with those who need it.  From my newsletters, from our Kinesiology sessions, my guided visualisations, journaling, creating, support from friends and family, and most importantly being able to care and nourish our hearts… because we are so worth it.

Here is also a link under the title helpful resources to other helpful mental health support numbers from my previous newsletter about the grief gremlin.

Now let’s have some much needed fun and play in life, whilst finding your centre and becoming your own hero.

For the month of May, Star Wars Month… I am offering 50%, yes 50% off my relaxation experience to my subscribers, Becoming Your Hero. Subscribe now and email me to get the discount!

I hope you find your much needed character to support you at home whenever you need it by listening to this fun insightful adventure. Enjoy!!

As always, thank you so much for your support and energy, to all my readers, and amazing clients I honour you all on your incredible journeys. Thank you also for your patience during our grieving process, to wait 5months for my much needed newsletter today. I am back to provide monthly tips and tricks and specials, thank you x

*  easy… hmm, perceived easy in the now and the short term.  However, we just know this is not the best action to take to really enable us to live life with quality and purpose and fulfillment, and chase away those lurking gremlins.  I know acknowledging our emotions and any problems is tough, but you don’t have to do it alone.  You can do it, it is time to confront yourself, time to take the slighter harder option, to acknowledge and hence release the shame, the guilt, those uncomfortable feelings.  This is absolutely the most rewarding option, the long-term coming to terms with our discomfort is definitely the way forward, to make all things easy in the long run. You are not alone, I would be honoured to help you find your long term comfort and ease.

1. *  easy… hmm, perceived easy in the now and the short term.  However, we just know this is not the best action to take to really enable us to live life with quality and purpose and fulfillment, and chase away those lurking gremlins.  I know acknowledging our emotions and any problems is tough, but you don’t have to do it alone.  You can do it, it is time to confront yourself, time to take the slighter harder option, to acknowledge and hence release the shame, the guilt, those uncomfortable feelings.  This is absolutely the most rewarding option, the long-term coming to terms with our discomfort is definitely the way forward, to make all things easy in the long run. You are not alone, I would be honoured to help you find your long term comfort and ease. ↩︎